without you all, i am nothing

 

You may not find my expression showing that I am touched, however, deep in my heart, I am touched. Tears just filled my eyes, when I recalled what happened yesterday, alone (of course after you all have left). From planning this surprise to gathering all friends, from choosing presents to making decision which present to purchase…… these processes must be tough, I can imagine (believe me). I seldom express myself, so, when I write it out, I mean it. Really appreciate this surprise birthday celebration (in advance birthday celebration); perhaps it is the most precious one so far. Thank you for traveling so far from Sungai Petani, Penang, Bukit Mertajam, Kajang and making my 19^th birthday such a memorable one. 

 

You all rocks, indeed. Hum hum spent much in preparing this celebration, they said. I must say wow! I could not believe my ears, anyhow, thank you hum hum! Also, Yi Juin, who used to be my night market companion in the very first semester, appeared in this celebration. I remember the fun we had in Adventure Club. Here, wish her luck in years to come.  Not forgetting her, Ang Shu…Hwang …>< who remembers my favorite cake and other stuffs, but she wrote my name wrongly @.@ (no doubt, we are people of the same blood type! yay!). Next, Wei Ting, an active girl, came as well. We came to know each other via a funny way; I guess she must be laughing when recalling it. Here comes my cute cute roommie (UE) who still has firm preference for flower. UE, I must say that the handbag’s inner design really not that “nice”. Also, UE haven’t fulfilled her promise as mentioned in the birthday card. What’s she going to tell me? * wondering* Anyhow, I will miss the crazy time we had in the dorm, A1-37, yea! Next, ehmm… my future housemates (so called “roommates”, for the Americans)—Xin Yuan, Sook Yan and Soon Cheong. Since Xin Yuan (chilling queen) is the oldest among housemates, she is going to be responsible for house chores, haha (Ah Sei will be set free, emancipation!)  This is her first time to be in Bandaraya Ipoh, hoping that she did enjoy this trip. Sook Yan and Soon Cheong have been travel to Ipoh for times, they must be bored…hmmm… they shall thank me for creating opportunity for them to meet together after one month separation =D. BTN camp is where the friendship between Sook Yan and I starts growing; I look forward to flourishing comradeship. Soon Cheong is a friend that always gives me the sense of belonging. I do appreciate it. Then, let’s talk about 2i 4ang. I still recall the first time we met at INTI sports hall, haha. Thank you for his assistance all the way and wish him good luck in Minnesota! (Oh no, I still owe him a testimonial as promised)

 

I hope that there is no period for our friendship.

Because,

Without you all, I am nothing.

 

It is my favorite cake, yay!

 

 

  Thank you, love you all, muaks! ><

 

A very special birthday card! (* opps.. forgot to take photo for the another present)

 

Thank you, my parents!… for giving FULL cooperation in making this celebration really a SUPRISE one. =D

 

Happy Birthday to myself…yo! (in advance happy birthday)

forgot

I forgot how to be happy.

I forgot how to smile when meeting people.

I forgot the meaning of life, and i keep forgeting everything.

 

I even forgot how to be myself.

let me down

Am i not putting enough effort or the lessons are getting tougher?

 

                                                                  The bombs let me down.

It is going to rain, where is my umbrella?

I can’t recall when is the last  bonding session that we had. We have bonding session, today. 

 

Just want to let you know, it is my honor to know you. Thank you for those encouraging e-cards, thank you for giving me a sense of belonging, thank you for trusting me, thank you for sharing, thank you for your precious time, thank you for your advice, thank you for accompanying me all the way and THANK YOU FOR BEING MY FRIEND. Though i am not the best friend, i keep trying.

 

It is going to rain, where is my umbrella? Found.

ticket bought

Yeah~Finally, i managed to buy train ticket to go back to hometown this coming friday. Thank you, Xin Yuan!

KL sentral-Ipoh

Date: 6 march 2008

Departure: 2145

Arrival: 0045

 

Three days of holidays, though short, i hope it would be a nice one.

 

i want to go home

When encountering  problems, i rendered in helpless. Once, I thought my EQ ability should able to cool myself down, however, it seems that i am perfectly wrong. What i need is to escape from this stressful environment, that’s why i am missing home now.

 

i want to go home.

 

her aim of this post

Inarticulate is the best adjective to describe her. She has ideas, yet don’t really know how to express. What matters the most is that she can’t explain the concept that she understands in studies to others explicitly. Because of this, people may think she doesn’t  want to share. In fact, it is the barrier that bars her to do so. 

 

Indifference, another characteristic of her. She would prefer not to share about herself while chatting or so call "bonding" as insecurity has locked her heart’s door. Also, experience and family background have turned her into a person who celebrates the state of being alone. (though she’s afraid to have dinner alone, sometimes)

 

She’s not here to state her weakness.

She’s here to apologize for her indifference as well as inarticulate, that’s her aim of this post.